Sunday, 27 March 2011

We are off to the races!

What a weekend this has been.  Our Seattle appointment at PNW couldn't have been any better!  We met the Donor Egg counsellor, my Nurse, the fabulous Doctor (Dr. Lorna Marshall), the Donor Cycle coordinator, the Embryologist and the Financial person.  It was the most thorough consultation we have ever undergone and we walked out of there with a donor match (YAY) and a timetable that has an estimated ET date of May 5th!  That is only 6 short weeks away!  We were so fortunate to find a donor that is my ethnicity (I am Asian), is 24 years old (the younger the better), is a proven donor (has had 2 past successful donations of which resulted in pregnancies) and is already on BCP's ready to cycle asap!  We are SO EXCITED!  I am told that usually it takes a few months to find a donor match so we feel that this is very promising - even the PNW team told us that this never happens and we are certainly off to a good start. 

Of course, this is typical of the IF journey - ups and downs, highs and lows so I'm trying to be cautiously optimistic here.  Our chances of success with this young donor is at 80% (70% chance of fraternal twins) so the numbers are good.  I would welcome the opportunity for twins considering the $30K we are spending on this cycle - 2 for 1!  Ideally, DH and I would love 2 children so if we have twins, I could stop there...bonus!

I am already on BCP's and start Lupron on Sunday April 3 - that's a week today!  Everything is happening so quickly and is making me think what could go wrong now?  First I had tubal problems, then egg quality issues so the only thing that could go wrong is my uterus.  As far as I know my uterus is good, no endo, no polyps, cysts, fibroids, etc.  But I can't help but think with my luck something could go wrong here too.

Trying to stay positive is a challenge because of my recent  IVF failure only a week and a half ago.  But I am willing myself to stay positive and hopeful because this will be what will work - I am sure of it.

DH and I booked a trip to Vegas on April 13th to clear our heads and regroup before this next cycle goes full force.  I am definitely looking forward to not stimming on max doses this time around as well as my chances of pregnancy are higher than ever. 

Thursday, 24 March 2011

Seattle Bound

Tonight we leave for Seattle to visit the Pacific Northwest Fertility Clinic.  I am anxious to get this started and also scared in anticipation.  We are getting a hotel in Seattle and will make our way leisurely to the clinic for our 12noon appointment, its 3 hours long!  I guess they want to ensure you are in the right frame of mind to commit to this process.  I've spent the last 2 days looking at donor profiles and we think we found the one we will choose.  She is young and is a proven donor and she is ready to cycle asap.  Good news I guess since we do not wait any longer.  The sadness of my negative result from my IVF this month is still lingering but I am ready to move forward with a vengeance.  We don't want to skip a beat here.  We were hoping for a baby in 2011 but its looking like it will be a 2012 baby now. 

Tuesday, 22 March 2011

My First Blog Post - March 22, 2011

Well I have always wanted to blog but never thought I had an interesting enough "topic" or "interest" to write about but here I am in the midst of my Infertility journey.  If you are reading this, you are probably going through the same thing as me to a different degree and with the same amount of anxiety, frustration, sadness, hope and all the fun stuff that is the wonderful road of Infertility.  A little about me in IVF language:

TTC - June 2009
RX - mild male factor, tubal and now premature ovarian failure
IVF#1 - July 2010 cancelled due to poor response
IVF#2 - September 2010 cancelled due to poor response
IVF #3 - March 2011, made it to ER and ET, 3dt, BFN - beta 0
Next steps: Egg donor cycle

I write this to chronicle my journey into an Egg Donor cycle, all the ifs, what's and buts.  My first appointment is in a Seattle clinic (I'm Canadian from Vancouver) so that in itself is scary.  $30K is the number that is being bounced around.  Me and DH are committed.  Looked at egg donor profiles today and even some photos.  Very intense experience to look at the face that could one day be your egg donor.
The experience will be surreal for me but at the same time exciting as it will finally increase my chances of having a baby with my wonderful husband.